Bad Boys Boot Camp: V1-C38

Chapter 38: Despair

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_{Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”}
With knees covered in bruises and palms streaked with the remnants of a wooden paddle’s strikes, Shen Qing was dumped in the infirmary, again meeting Qin Mo. The state of her hands made the boy worry if she would be able to use them again in the future. The scorching fever made her skin a sickly mix of red and blue. Despite being given medicine, she was still unconscious, tears pouring from her eyes as she muttered incoherently in her daze.

Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”

_{{I think… I think I know what she means.}}Qin Mo’s questioning look at her request made Shen Qing lower her eyes. “I give up.” She said simply, as there was nothing left for her to cling to.

I think… I think I know what she means.

_{After hearing her words, Qin Mo gave his response, his tone calm yet firm: “I’ll wait. He and I will go together.”}“You’ve been sad this entire time,” Qin Mo replied before adding, “No… you’ve been in pain all along.”

After hearing her words, Qin Mo gave his response, his tone calm yet firm: “I’ll wait. He and I will go together.”

_{“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.}
This was a Shen Qing that Qin Mo had never seen before. The girl in his memories had never once broken down, no matter how many times or how long she was confined. She never lost her confidence, even when she was slapped so hаrd that it loosened teeth. She seemed indestructible; she was the type to brush such things aside and cuss out the abuses of those instructors instead.

“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.

_{“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”}Shen Qing sighed, then asked, “Spill it, then. C’mon, out with it.”

“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{She compromised.}“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”

She compromised.

_{After hearing her words, Qin Mo gave his response, his tone calm yet firm: “I’ll wait. He and I will go together.”}
But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.

After hearing her words, Qin Mo gave his response, his tone calm yet firm: “I’ll wait. He and I will go together.”

_{Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.}Qin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag. When evening arrived, Doctor Wu left as usual, but not before stopping by to see Yang Fanghong and arrange for Qin Mo to spend the night to watch over their patient.

Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.

_{Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.}
Just as Qin Mo was almost prepared to go ask Mo Nian for assistance for their plan, Shen Qing was caught, dragged back, beaten with a paddle, and left to kneel outside for a full day before being dumped in the infirmary, long pushed into her current state.

Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.

_{She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.}With knees covered in bruises and palms streaked with the remnants of a wooden paddle’s strikes, Shen Qing was dumped in the infirmary, again meeting Qin Mo. The state of her hands made the boy worry if she would be able to use them again in the future. The scorching fever made her skin a sickly mix of red and blue. Despite being given medicine, she was still unconscious, tears pouring from her eyes as she muttered incoherently in her daze.

She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

_{“You and Shen Zhuoyun,” the girl continued, “You two, just like Juan’er and me, are walking a path of no return, and someone will always turn back first.” The girl spoke desperately; she was tired.}
Qin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag. When evening arrived, Doctor Wu left as usual, but not before stopping by to see Yang Fanghong and arrange for Qin Mo to spend the night to watch over their patient.

“You and Shen Zhuoyun,” the girl continued, “You two, just like Juan’er and me, are walking a path of no return, and someone will always turn back first.” The girl spoke desperately; she was tired. It was hаrd to tell if she was warning Qin Mo or urging another version of herself. “You still haven’t fallen in too deeply yet. So if you leave now, you will never have to see him again. You can get away.”

_{“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.}“There’s a computer right here. You can swap out the surveillance footage right now. There are also a lot of tools here in this room, so you can walk to the northern wall from here and cut through the barbed wire fence. Sure, it might be hаrder on your own, but it’s not impossible. You can leave right now instead of staking it all on some future plan. You don’t have to wait,” Shen Qing urged.

“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.

_{{I think… I think I know what she means.}}With knees covered in bruises and palms streaked with the remnants of a wooden paddle’s strikes, Shen Qing was dumped in the infirmary, again meeting Qin Mo. The state of her hands made the boy worry if she would be able to use them again in the future. The scorching fever made her skin a sickly mix of red and blue. Despite being given medicine, she was still unconscious, tears pouring from her eyes as she muttered incoherently in her daze.

I think… I think I know what she means.

_{“There’s a computer right here. You can swap out the surveillance footage right now.}
At nine o’clock, Qin Mo put down the papers he busied himself with as Shen Qing slept, rubbing his eyes to wipe away the drowsiness. Picking up the electric kettle, he poured the cooled water into a retro enamel mug and made his way to the tap, his focus fixed on the muffled stream of liquid falling into the kettle.

“There’s a computer right here. You can swap out the surveillance footage right now. There are also a lot of tools here in this room, so you can walk to the northern wall from here and cut through the barbed wire fence. Sure, it might be hаrder on your own, but it’s not impossible. You can leave right now instead of staking it all on some future plan. You don’t have to wait,” Shen Qing urged.

_{With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”}“You and Shen Zhuoyun,” the girl continued, “You two, just like Juan’er and me, are walking a path of no return, and someone will always turn back first.” The girl spoke desperately; she was tired. It was hаrd to tell if she was warning Qin Mo or urging another version of herself. “You still haven’t fallen in too deeply yet. So if you leave now, you will never have to see him again. You can get away.”

With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”

_{Qin Mo halted his steps.}
Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.

Qin Mo halted his steps.

_{Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.}N/A

Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.

_{This was a Shen Qing that Qin Mo had never seen before. The girl in his memories had never once broken down, no matter how many times or how long she was confined. She never lost her confidence, even when she was slapped so hаrd that it loosened teeth. She seemed indestructible; she was the type to brush such things aside and cuss out the abuses of those instructors instead.}“Haa…” Shen Qing sighed. “I regret it. I really do.”

This was a Shen Qing that Qin Mo had never seen before. The girl in his memories had never once broken down, no matter how many times or how long she was confined. She never lost her confidence, even when she was slapped so hаrd that it loosened teeth. She seemed indestructible; she was the type to brush such things aside and cuss out the abuses of those instructors instead.

_{“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.}With knees covered in bruises and palms streaked with the remnants of a wooden paddle’s strikes, Shen Qing was dumped in the infirmary, again meeting Qin Mo. The state of her hands made the boy worry if she would be able to use them again in the future. The scorching fever made her skin a sickly mix of red and blue. Despite being given medicine, she was still unconscious, tears pouring from her eyes as she muttered incoherently in her daze.

“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.

_{“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”}
The sound of the kettle reaching its fill tore away Qin Mo’s attention. Turning his head back, he closed the tap, returned the kettle to its base, then pressed the button.

“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”

_{“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.}This was a Shen Qing that Qin Mo had never seen before. The girl in his memories had never once broken down, no matter how many times or how long she was confined. She never lost her confidence, even when she was slapped so hаrd that it loosened teeth. She seemed indestructible; she was the type to brush such things aside and cuss out the abuses of those instructors instead.

“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.

_{Just as Qin Mo was almost prepared to go ask Mo Nian for assistance for their plan, Shen Qing was caught, dragged back, beaten with a paddle, and left to kneel outside for a full day before being dumped in the infirmary, long pushed into her current state.}Qin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag. When evening arrived, Doctor Wu left as usual, but not before stopping by to see Yang Fanghong and arrange for Qin Mo to spend the night to watch over their patient.

Just as Qin Mo was almost prepared to go ask Mo Nian for assistance for their plan, Shen Qing was caught, dragged back, beaten with a paddle, and left to kneel outside for a full day before being dumped in the infirmary, long pushed into her current state.

_{“There’s a computer right here. You can swap out the surveillance footage right now.}“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.

_{There was nothing left.}With knees covered in bruises and palms streaked with the remnants of a wooden paddle’s strikes, Shen Qing was dumped in the infirmary, again meeting Qin Mo. The state of her hands made the boy worry if she would be able to use them again in the future. The scorching fever made her skin a sickly mix of red and blue. Despite being given medicine, she was still unconscious, tears pouring from her eyes as she muttered incoherently in her daze.

There was nothing left.

_{At nine o’clock, Qin Mo put down the papers he busied himself with as Shen Qing slept, rubbing his eyes to wipe away the drowsiness. Picking up the electric kettle, he poured the cooled water into a retro enamel mug and made his way to the tap, his focus fixed on the muffled stream of liquid falling into the kettle.}
“Are you feeling any better?” Qin Mo poured the cooled water from the enamel mug into a paper cup, placing it next to Shen Qing’s lips. Her hands were injured after all, so she could only drink with the help of Qin Mo’s hands.

At nine o’clock, Qin Mo put down the papers he busied himself with as Shen Qing slept, rubbing his eyes to wipe away the drowsiness. Picking up the electric kettle, he poured the cooled water into a retro enamel mug and made his way to the tap, his focus fixed on the muffled stream of liquid falling into the kettle.

_{“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.}She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.

_{Around that hour, there was not much to eat, so Qin Mo took out the jar of candy and handed Shen Qing a piece. But the girl only shook her head.}There was nothing left.

Around that hour, there was not much to eat, so Qin Mo took out the jar of candy and handed Shen Qing a piece. But the girl only shook her head.

_{Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”}
“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.

Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”

_{“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”}Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.

“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”

_{This was a Shen Qing that Qin Mo had never seen before. The girl in his memories had never once broken down, no matter how many times or how long she was confined. She never lost her confidence, even when she was slapped so hаrd that it loosened teeth. She seemed indestructible; she was the type to brush such things aside and cuss out the abuses of those instructors instead.}She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

_{{She still has the energy to tell jokes. That’s good, then.}}“Are you feeling any better?” Qin Mo poured the cooled water from the enamel mug into a paper cup, placing it next to Shen Qing’s lips. Her hands were injured after all, so she could only drink with the help of Qin Mo’s hands.

She still has the energy to tell jokes. That’s good, then.

_{Qin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag.}
After downing three cups in a row, Shen Qing’s face cracked into a grin more unseemly than her sobbing one as she teased, “If Shen Zhuoyun found out about this, he’d take me out in an instant.”

Qin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag. When evening arrived, Doctor Wu left as usual, but not before stopping by to see Yang Fanghong and arrange for Qin Mo to spend the night to watch over their patient.

_{But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.}Qin Mo’s questioning look at her request made Shen Qing lower her eyes. “I give up.” She said simply, as there was nothing left for her to cling to.

But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.

_{The sound of the kettle reaching its fill tore away Qin Mo’s attention. Turning his head back, he closed the tap, returned the kettle to its base, then pressed the button.}Qin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag. When evening arrived, Doctor Wu left as usual, but not before stopping by to see Yang Fanghong and arrange for Qin Mo to spend the night to watch over their patient.

The sound of the kettle reaching its fill tore away Qin Mo’s attention. Turning his head back, he closed the tap, returned the kettle to its base, then pressed the button.

_{There was nothing left.}She still has the energy to tell jokes. That’s good, then.

There was nothing left.

_{Shen Qing sighed, then asked, “Spill it, then. C’mon, out with it.”}
She still has the energy to tell jokes. That’s good, then.

Shen Qing sighed, then asked, “Spill it, then. C’mon, out with it.”

_{“Three years… I stuck to my guns for three years. I endured the torment of this place for six months. I could do all that as long as she was by my side. She was the reason I could hold on,” Shen Qing spoke as if it were a confession. “My job, my dreams, my parents… I could give them all up. I would give everything up so long as I had her. But… after everything, I don’t even have her…”}“You and Shen Zhuoyun,” the girl continued, “You two, just like Juan’er and me, are walking a path of no return, and someone will always turn back first.” The girl spoke desperately; she was tired. It was hаrd to tell if she was warning Qin Mo or urging another version of herself. “You still haven’t fallen in too deeply yet. So if you leave now, you will never have to see him again. You can get away.”

“Three years… I stuck to my guns for three years. I endured the torment of this place for six months. I could do all that as long as she was by my side. She was the reason I could hold on,” Shen Qing spoke as if it were a confession. “My job, my dreams, my parents… I could give them all up. I would give everything up so long as I had her. But… after everything, I don’t even have her…”

_{She was in a state of hopelessness, unsure of where to go, but certain she would not turn back. So she was stuck at this crossroad, the only place she could stay until time slowly erodes the love her youthful heart holds onto so deeply and persistently.}Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.

She was in a state of hopelessness, unsure of where to go, but certain she would not turn back. So she was stuck at this crossroad, the only place she could stay until time slowly erodes the love her youthful heart holds onto so deeply and persistently. Maybe she will remain like this for a few years, or maybe she’ll be stuck there for a lifetime, unable to move forward, forever buried at that impasse.

_{Chapter 38: Despair}The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.

Chapter 38: Despair

_{“Hey, Qin Mo,” Shen Qing called out, her gaze still empty. “I have nothing left now.” Despite there being nothing peculiar in her expression, Qin Mo got the feeling she was crying despite her lack of tears.}
After both stayed silent for a moment, the quiet was interrupted by a growl from Shen Qing’s stomach.

“Hey, Qin Mo,” Shen Qing called out, her gaze still empty. “I have nothing left now.” Despite there being nothing peculiar in her expression, Qin Mo got the feeling she was crying despite her lack of tears.

_{The sound of the kettle reaching its fill tore away Qin Mo’s attention. Turning his head back, he closed the tap, returned the kettle to its base, then pressed the button.}Just as Qin Mo was almost prepared to go ask Mo Nian for assistance for their plan, Shen Qing was caught, dragged back, beaten with a paddle, and left to kneel outside for a full day before being dumped in the infirmary, long pushed into her current state.

The sound of the kettle reaching its fill tore away Qin Mo’s attention. Turning his head back, he closed the tap, returned the kettle to its base, then pressed the button.

_N/A“Alright, then. It’ll do it.” Shen Qing nodded after listening, but also added, “But you have to help me out with something, too.

N/A

_{The sound of the kettle reaching its fill tore away Qin Mo’s attention. Turning his head back, he closed the tap, returned the kettle to its base, then pressed the button.}“Three years… I stuck to my guns for three years. I endured the torment of this place for six months. I could do all that as long as she was by my side. She was the reason I could hold on,” Shen Qing spoke as if it were a confession. “My job, my dreams, my parents… I could give them all up. I would give everything up so long as I had her. But… after everything, I don’t even have her…”

The sound of the kettle reaching its fill tore away Qin Mo’s attention. Turning his head back, he closed the tap, returned the kettle to its base, then pressed the button.

_{With knees covered in bruises and palms streaked with the remnants of a wooden paddle’s strikes, Shen Qing was dumped in the infirmary, again meeting Qin Mo. The state of her hands made the boy worry if she would be able to use them again in the future.}“I gave everyone my apologies and did what I wanted, and in exchange for that, she, to me, said she was sorry, too.”

With knees covered in bruises and palms streaked with the remnants of a wooden paddle’s strikes, Shen Qing was dumped in the infirmary, again meeting Qin Mo. The state of her hands made the boy worry if she would be able to use them again in the future. The scorching fever made her skin a sickly mix of red and blue. Despite being given medicine, she was still unconscious, tears pouring from her eyes as she muttered incoherently in her daze.

_{She compromised.}
Around that hour, there was not much to eat, so Qin Mo took out the jar of candy and handed Shen Qing a piece. But the girl only shook her head.

She compromised.

_{Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”}“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.

Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”

_{Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.}Her everything had always, and only, been Yu Juan. Yu Juan was all that she had. But now—now, she had nothing.

Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.

_{She was in a state of hopelessness, unsure of where to go, but certain she would not turn back. So she was stuck at this crossroad, the only place she could stay until time slowly erodes the love her youthful heart holds onto so deeply and persistently.}Shen Qing remained silent for a long time, her reply taking the form of a slight nod accompanied by a hum.

_{Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.}“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”

Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.

_{Around that hour, there was not much to eat, so Qin Mo took out the jar of candy and handed Shen Qing a piece. But the girl only shook her head.}
“Hey, Qin Mo,” Shen Qing called out, her gaze still empty. “I have nothing left now.” Despite there being nothing peculiar in her expression, Qin Mo got the feeling she was crying despite her lack of tears.

Around that hour, there was not much to eat, so Qin Mo took out the jar of candy and handed Shen Qing a piece. But the girl only shook her head.

_{“I gave everyone my apologies and did what I wanted, and in exchange for that, she, to me, said she was sorry, too.”}Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.

“I gave everyone my apologies and did what I wanted, and in exchange for that, she, to me, said she was sorry, too.”

_{“Are you feeling any better?” Qin Mo poured the cooled water from the enamel mug into a paper cup, placing it next to Shen Qing’s lips. Her hands were injured after all, so she could only drink with the help of Qin Mo’s hands.}
I think… I think I know what she means.

“Are you feeling any better?” Qin Mo poured the cooled water from the enamel mug into a paper cup, placing it next to Shen Qing’s lips. Her hands were injured after all, so she could only drink with the help of Qin Mo’s hands.

_{The steam barrelled from the kettle, the bubbles snapping and popping with such ferocity that the switch for the base automatically clіcked off.}Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.

The steam barrelled from the kettle, the bubbles snapping and popping with such ferocity that the switch for the base automatically clіcked off.

_{Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”}“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.

Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”

_{Chapter 38: Despair}
“Three years… I stuck to my guns for three years. I endured the torment of this place for six months. I could do all that as long as she was by my side. She was the reason I could hold on,” Shen Qing spoke as if it were a confession. “My job, my dreams, my parents… I could give them all up. I would give everything up so long as I had her. But… after everything, I don’t even have her…”

Chapter 38: Despair

_{Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.}With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.

Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.

_{Once, they were holding hands tіghtly, walking side by side. But that hand in hers pulled away, leaving hers. All she had left was a dead-end path she would now walk alone.}Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”

Once, they were holding hands tіghtly, walking side by side. But that hand in hers pulled away, leaving hers. All she had left was a dead-end path she would now walk alone.

_{Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”}With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.

Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”

_{“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”}Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.

“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{In the beginning, she was only teasing him. But then, whether unintentionally or not, she helped nudge them together because she was also in the midst of her own sweet love, so she truly believed that so long as you loved the other person, everything would work out.}
The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.

In the beginning, she was only teasing him. But then, whether unintentionally or not, she helped nudge them together because she was also in the midst of her own sweet love, so she truly believed that so long as you loved the other person, everything would work out.

_{Around that hour, there was not much to eat, so Qin Mo took out the jar of candy and handed Shen Qing a piece. But the girl only shook her head.}Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”

Around that hour, there was not much to eat, so Qin Mo took out the jar of candy and handed Shen Qing a piece. But the girl only shook her head.

_{Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”}“Hey, Qin Mo,” Shen Qing called out, her gaze still empty. “I have nothing left now.” Despite there being nothing peculiar in her expression, Qin Mo got the feeling she was crying despite her lack of tears.

Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”

_{With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”}With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.

With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”

_{“You’ve been sad this entire time,” Qin Mo replied before adding, “No… you’ve been in pain all along.”}“Three years… I stuck to my guns for three years. I endured the torment of this place for six months. I could do all that as long as she was by my side. She was the reason I could hold on,” Shen Qing spoke as if it were a confession. “My job, my dreams, my parents… I could give them all up. I would give everything up so long as I had her. But… after everything, I don’t even have her…”

“You’ve been sad this entire time,” Qin Mo replied before adding, “No… you’ve been in pain all along.”

_{The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.}
“I gave everyone my apologies and did what I wanted, and in exchange for that, she, to me, said she was sorry, too.”

The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.

_{“{Haa…}” Shen Qing sighed. “I regret it. I really do.”}“Three years… I stuck to my guns for three years. I endured the torment of this place for six months. I could do all that as long as she was by my side. She was the reason I could hold on,” Shen Qing spoke as if it were a confession. “My job, my dreams, my parents… I could give them all up. I would give everything up so long as I had her. But… after everything, I don’t even have her…”

“Haa…” Shen Qing sighed. “I regret it. I really do.”

_{“I have nothing left,” Shen Qing muttered the same line again.}
Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.

“I have nothing left,” Shen Qing muttered the same line again.

With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.

_{“Then, what about your future?”}There was nothing left.

“Then, what about your future?”

_{The steam barrelled from the kettle, the bubbles snapping and popping with such ferocity that the switch for the base automatically clіcked off.}
The steam barrelled from the kettle, the bubbles snapping and popping with such ferocity that the switch for the base automatically clіcked off.

The steam barrelled from the kettle, the bubbles snapping and popping with such ferocity that the switch for the base automatically clіcked off.

_{Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.}Shen Qing remained silent for a long time, her reply taking the form of a slight nod accompanied by a hum.

Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.

_{She was in a state of hopelessness, unsure of where to go, but certain she would not turn back. So she was stuck at this crossroad, the only place she could stay until time slowly erodes the love her youthful heart holds onto so deeply and persistently.}“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{Her everything had always, and only, been Yu Juan. Yu Juan was all that she had. But now—now, she had nothing.}At nine o’clock, Qin Mo put down the papers he busied himself with as Shen Qing slept, rubbing his eyes to wipe away the drowsiness. Picking up the electric kettle, he poured the cooled water into a retro enamel mug and made his way to the tap, his focus fixed on the muffled stream of liquid falling into the kettle.

Her everything had always, and only, been Yu Juan. Yu Juan was all that she had. But now—now, she had nothing.

_{“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”}“You and Shen Zhuoyun,” the girl continued, “You two, just like Juan’er and me, are walking a path of no return, and someone will always turn back first.” The girl spoke desperately; she was tired. It was hаrd to tell if she was warning Qin Mo or urging another version of herself. “You still haven’t fallen in too deeply yet. So if you leave now, you will never have to see him again. You can get away.”

“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{Shen Qing remained silent for a long time, her reply taking the form of a slight nod accompanied by a hum.}
Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.

Shen Qing remained silent for a long time, her reply taking the form of a slight nod accompanied by a hum.

_{“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.}Her everything had always, and only, been Yu Juan. Yu Juan was all that she had. But now—now, she had nothing.

“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.

_{{I think… I think I know what she means.}}She had no other options now.

I think… I think I know what she means.

_{At nine o’clock, Qin Mo put down the papers he busied himself with as Shen Qing slept, rubbing his eyes to wipe away the drowsiness. Picking up the electric kettle, he poured the cooled water into a retro enamel mug and made his way to the tap, his focus fixed on the muffled stream of liquid falling into the kettle.}Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”

_{But now, as she was covered in the wounds such a tryst had begotten, how could she dare profess to anyone that loving purely means there’d be nothing to fear?}
“I have nothing left,” Shen Qing muttered the same line again.

But now, as she was covered in the wounds such a tryst had begotten, how could she dare profess to anyone that loving purely means there’d be nothing to fear?

_{The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.}But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.

The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.

_{After both stayed silent for a moment, the quiet was interrupted by a growl from Shen Qing’s stomach.}Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.

After both stayed silent for a moment, the quiet was interrupted by a growl from Shen Qing’s stomach.

_{“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.}
Her everything had always, and only, been Yu Juan. Yu Juan was all that she had. But now—now, she had nothing.

“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.

_{Qin Mo halted his steps.}She compromised.

Qin Mo halted his steps.

_{“Alright, then. It’ll do it.” Shen Qing nodded after listening, but also added, “But you have to help me out with something, too.}Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.

“Alright, then. It’ll do it.” Shen Qing nodded after listening, but also added, “But you have to help me out with something, too.

Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.

_{But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.}
“Look up, please.” Qin Mo sat beside her, his hands pulling out a towel soaking in the basin before wringing it dry.

But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.

_{What could a person do apart from compromising? Leverage their life to threaten the one they love in an act of desperation? Or do they latch on to that lover until the last remnants of their affection are snuffed out by the harsh coldness of reality?}“I’ll give you my family’s number, so when you get out of here, please call my mom and tell her that I’m willing to come home.”

What could a person do apart from compromising? Leverage their life to threaten the one they love in an act of desperation? Or do they latch on to that lover until the last remnants of their affection are snuffed out by the harsh coldness of reality?

_{“I have nothing left,” Shen Qing muttered the same line again.}With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.

“I have nothing left,” Shen Qing muttered the same line again.

_{She still has the energy to tell jokes. That’s good, then.}
Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.

She still has the energy to tell jokes. That’s good, then.

_{Seeing that Shen Qing had already woken up, Qin Mo had no reason to stay there any longer, so he got ready to leave. But as he took his first step, Shen Qing stated, “You can do it now… You can leave this place right now.”}She was in a state of hopelessness, unsure of where to go, but certain she would not turn back. So she was stuck at this crossroad, the only place she could stay until time slowly erodes the love her youthful heart holds onto so deeply and persistently. Maybe she will remain like this for a few years, or maybe she’ll be stuck there for a lifetime, unable to move forward, forever buried at that impasse.

Seeing that Shen Qing had already woken up, Qin Mo had no reason to stay there any longer, so he got ready to leave. But as he took his first step, Shen Qing stated, “You can do it now… You can leave this place right now.”

_N/AQin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag. When evening arrived, Doctor Wu left as usual, but not before stopping by to see Yang Fanghong and arrange for Qin Mo to spend the night to watch over their patient.

N/A

_{“I’ll give you my family’s number, so when you get out of here, please call my mom and tell her that I’m willing to come home.”}
“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.

“I’ll give you my family’s number, so when you get out of here, please call my mom and tell her that I’m willing to come home.”

_{Shen Qing remained silent for a long time, her reply taking the form of a slight nod accompanied by a hum.}I think… I think I know what she means.

Shen Qing remained silent for a long time, her reply taking the form of a slight nod accompanied by a hum.

_{Chapter 38: Despair}Qin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag. When evening arrived, Doctor Wu left as usual, but not before stopping by to see Yang Fanghong and arrange for Qin Mo to spend the night to watch over their patient.

Chapter 38: Despair

_{She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.}I think… I think I know what she means.

She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

_{With knees covered in bruises and palms streaked with the remnants of a wooden paddle’s strikes, Shen Qing was dumped in the infirmary, again meeting Qin Mo. The state of her hands made the boy worry if she would be able to use them again in the future.}
“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”

_{After both stayed silent for a moment, the quiet was interrupted by a growl from Shen Qing’s stomach.}“Are you feeling any better?” Qin Mo poured the cooled water from the enamel mug into a paper cup, placing it next to Shen Qing’s lips. Her hands were injured after all, so she could only drink with the help of Qin Mo’s hands.

After both stayed silent for a moment, the quiet was interrupted by a growl from Shen Qing’s stomach.

_{“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”}
“Then, what about your future?”

“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{“Hey, Qin Mo,” Shen Qing called out, her gaze still empty. “I have nothing left now.” Despite there being nothing peculiar in her expression, Qin Mo got the feeling she was crying despite her lack of tears.}“Alright, then. It’ll do it.” Shen Qing nodded after listening, but also added, “But you have to help me out with something, too.

_{“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.}She compromised.

“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.

_{The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.}There was nothing left.

The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.

_{Chapter 38: Despair}She was in a state of hopelessness, unsure of where to go, but certain she would not turn back. So she was stuck at this crossroad, the only place she could stay until time slowly erodes the love her youthful heart holds onto so deeply and persistently. Maybe she will remain like this for a few years, or maybe she’ll be stuck there for a lifetime, unable to move forward, forever buried at that impasse.

Chapter 38: Despair

_{Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.}
Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”

Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.

_{She had no other options now.}She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

She had no other options now.

_{“Haa…” Shen Qing sighed. “I regret it. I really do.”}
She compromised.

“Haa…” Shen Qing sighed. “I regret it. I really do.”

_{Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”}As Qin Mo listened to her, a flash of confusion he couldn’t place struck him before disappearing just as quickly.

Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”

_{“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.}After downing three cups in a row, Shen Qing’s face cracked into a grin more unseemly than her sobbing one as she teased, “If Shen Zhuoyun found out about this, he’d take me out in an instant.”

“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.

_{“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”}“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.

“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{Qin Mo’s questioning look at her request made Shen Qing lower her eyes. “I give up.” She said simply, as there was nothing left for her to cling to.}
What could a person do apart from compromising? Leverage their life to threaten the one they love in an act of desperation? Or do they latch on to that lover until the last remnants of their affection are snuffed out by the harsh coldness of reality?

Qin Mo’s questioning look at her request made Shen Qing lower her eyes. “I give up.” She said simply, as there was nothing left for her to cling to.

_{Qin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag.}“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”}Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.

Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”

_{Once, they were holding hands tіghtly, walking side by side. But that hand in hers pulled away, leaving hers. All she had left was a dead-end path she would now walk alone.}
There was nothing left.

Once, they were holding hands tіghtly, walking side by side. But that hand in hers pulled away, leaving hers. All she had left was a dead-end path she would now walk alone.

_{Chapter 38: Despair}N/A

Chapter 38: Despair

After downing three cups in a row, Shen Qing’s face cracked into a grin more unseemly than her sobbing one as she teased, “If Shen Zhuoyun found out about this, he’d take me out in an instant.”

_{Qin Mo halted his steps.}“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.

Qin Mo halted his steps.

_{“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.}“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.

“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.

_{As Qin Mo listened to her, a flash of confusion he couldn’t place struck him before disappearing just as quickly.}
As Qin Mo listened to her, a flash of confusion he couldn’t place struck him before disappearing just as quickly.

As Qin Mo listened to her, a flash of confusion he couldn’t place struck him before disappearing just as quickly.

_{“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.}Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.

“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.

_{Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.}“You’ve been sad this entire time,” Qin Mo replied before adding, “No… you’ve been in pain all along.”

Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.

_{“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”}The steam barrelled from the kettle, the bubbles snapping and popping with such ferocity that the switch for the base automatically clіcked off.

“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”

_{What could a person do apart from compromising? Leverage their life to threaten the one they love in an act of desperation? Or do they latch on to that lover until the last remnants of their affection are snuffed out by the harsh coldness of reality?}
“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.}“I have nothing left,” Shen Qing muttered the same line again.

Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.

_{“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.}“I have nothing left,” Shen Qing muttered the same line again.

“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.

_{{She still has the energy to tell jokes. That’s good, then.}}She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

She still has the energy to tell jokes. That’s good, then.

_{“Look up, please.” Qin Mo sat beside her, his hands pulling out a towel soaking in the basin before wringing it dry.}
“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.

“Look up, please.” Qin Mo sat beside her, his hands pulling out a towel soaking in the basin before wringing it dry.

_{Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”}Around that hour, there was not much to eat, so Qin Mo took out the jar of candy and handed Shen Qing a piece. But the girl only shook her head.

Shen Qing stayed silent for a long time before a bleak grin spreаd across her face as she replied, “What else can I do… the choice has long been made.”

_N/A
“You’ve been sad this entire time,” Qin Mo replied before adding, “No… you’ve been in pain all along.”

N/A

_{Seeing that Shen Qing had already woken up, Qin Mo had no reason to stay there any longer, so he got ready to leave. But as he took his first step, Shen Qing stated, “You can do it now… You can leave this place right now.”}“Look up, please.” Qin Mo sat beside her, his hands pulling out a towel soaking in the basin before wringing it dry.

_{She was in a state of hopelessness, unsure of where to go, but certain she would not turn back. So she was stuck at this crossroad, the only place she could stay until time slowly erodes the love her youthful heart holds onto so deeply and persistently.}“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.

_{She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.}
Shen Qing sighed, then asked, “Spill it, then. C’mon, out with it.”

She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

_{Once, they were holding hands tіghtly, walking side by side. But that hand in hers pulled away, leaving hers. All she had left was a dead-end path she would now walk alone.}“I gave everyone my apologies and did what I wanted, and in exchange for that, she, to me, said she was sorry, too.”

Once, they were holding hands tіghtly, walking side by side. But that hand in hers pulled away, leaving hers. All she had left was a dead-end path she would now walk alone.

_{After both stayed silent for a moment, the quiet was interrupted by a growl from Shen Qing’s stomach.}After hearing her words, Qin Mo gave his response, his tone calm yet firm: “I’ll wait. He and I will go together.”

After both stayed silent for a moment, the quiet was interrupted by a growl from Shen Qing’s stomach.

_{“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.}She compromised.

“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.

_{Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.}
With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”

Shen Qing buried her face in the blanket, her shoulders shaking, the sounds leaving her sounding like a mix of laughter and sobs.

_{This was a Shen Qing that Qin Mo had never seen before. The girl in his memories had never once broken down, no matter how many times or how long she was confined. She never lost her confidence, even when she was slapped so hаrd that it loosened teeth. She seemed indestructible; she was the type to brush such things aside and cuss out the abuses of those instructors instead.}Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.

_{Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”}The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.

Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”

_{“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.}Shen Qing remained silent for a long time, her reply taking the form of a slight nod accompanied by a hum.

“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.

_{After hearing her words, Qin Mo gave his response, his tone calm yet firm: “I’ll wait. He and I will go together.”}Her everything had always, and only, been Yu Juan. Yu Juan was all that she had. But now—now, she had nothing.

After hearing her words, Qin Mo gave his response, his tone calm yet firm: “I’ll wait. He and I will go together.”

_{Her everything had always, and only, been Yu Juan. Yu Juan was all that she had. But now—now, she had nothing.}
“Alright, then. It’ll do it.” Shen Qing nodded after listening, but also added, “But you have to help me out with something, too.

Her everything had always, and only, been Yu Juan. Yu Juan was all that she had. But now—now, she had nothing.

_{After downing three cups in a row, Shen Qing’s face cracked into a grin more unseemly than her sobbing one as she teased, “If Shen Zhuoyun found out about this, he’d take me out in an instant.”}At nine o’clock, Qin Mo put down the papers he busied himself with as Shen Qing slept, rubbing his eyes to wipe away the drowsiness. Picking up the electric kettle, he poured the cooled water into a retro enamel mug and made his way to the tap, his focus fixed on the muffled stream of liquid falling into the kettle.

_{But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.}But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.

But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.

_{There was nothing left.}
“I’ll give you my family’s number, so when you get out of here, please call my mom and tell her that I’m willing to come home.”

There was nothing left.

_{Seeing that Shen Qing had already woken up, Qin Mo had no reason to stay there any longer, so he got ready to leave. But as he took his first step, Shen Qing stated, “You can do it now… You can leave this place right now.”}Around that hour, there was not much to eat, so Qin Mo took out the jar of candy and handed Shen Qing a piece. But the girl only shook her head.

_{Seeing that Shen Qing had already woken up, Qin Mo had no reason to stay there any longer, so he got ready to leave. But as he took his first step, Shen Qing stated, “You can do it now… You can leave this place right now.”}
Qin Mo’s questioning look at her request made Shen Qing lower her eyes. “I give up.” She said simply, as there was nothing left for her to cling to.

_{“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.}Her everything had always, and only, been Yu Juan. Yu Juan was all that she had. But now—now, she had nothing.

“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.

_{She was in a state of hopelessness, unsure of where to go, but certain she would not turn back. So she was stuck at this crossroad, the only place she could stay until time slowly erodes the love her youthful heart holds onto so deeply and persistently.}
Qin Mo nodded in response. “Let’s start the day after tomorrow, then.”

_{“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”}Shen Qing sighed, then asked, “Spill it, then. C’mon, out with it.”

“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{“{Haa…}” Shen Qing sighed. “I regret it. I really do.”}Qin Mo took her temperature; it was forty-one degrees. Afraid her brain would fry in her skull, he called the school doctor, taking several tries before getting in touch with the man more elusive than a fox, begging him to come hang an IV bag. When evening arrived, Doctor Wu left as usual, but not before stopping by to see Yang Fanghong and arrange for Qin Mo to spend the night to watch over their patient.

“Haa…” Shen Qing sighed. “I regret it. I really do.”

_{As Qin Mo listened to her, a flash of confusion he couldn’t place struck him before disappearing just as quickly.}“You’ve been sad this entire time,” Qin Mo replied before adding, “No… you’ve been in pain all along.”

As Qin Mo listened to her, a flash of confusion he couldn’t place struck him before disappearing just as quickly.

_{I think… I think I know what she means.}
Seeing that Shen Qing had already woken up, Qin Mo had no reason to stay there any longer, so he got ready to leave. But as he took his first step, Shen Qing stated, “You can do it now… You can leave this place right now.”

I think… I think I know what she means.

_{She had no other options now.}“Alright, then. It’ll do it.” Shen Qing nodded after listening, but also added, “But you have to help me out with something, too.

She had no other options now.

_{“You’ve been sad this entire time,” Qin Mo replied before adding, “No… you’ve been in pain all along.”}
Qin Mo halted his steps.

“You’ve been sad this entire time,” Qin Mo replied before adding, “No… you’ve been in pain all along.”

_{But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.}With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”

But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.

_{Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.}She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.

_{“I gave everyone my apologies and did what I wanted, and in exchange for that, she, to me, said she was sorry, too.”}With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”

“I gave everyone my apologies and did what I wanted, and in exchange for that, she, to me, said she was sorry, too.”

_{“Alright, then. It’ll do it.” Shen Qing nodded after listening, but also added, “But you have to help me out with something, too.}
“There’s a computer right here. You can swap out the surveillance footage right now. There are also a lot of tools here in this room, so you can walk to the northern wall from here and cut through the barbed wire fence. Sure, it might be hаrder on your own, but it’s not impossible. You can leave right now instead of staking it all on some future plan. You don’t have to wait,” Shen Qing urged.

“Alright, then. It’ll do it.” Shen Qing nodded after listening, but also added, “But you have to help me out with something, too.

_{She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.}She compromised.

She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

_{She had no other options now.}
“You and Shen Zhuoyun,” the girl continued, “You two, just like Juan’er and me, are walking a path of no return, and someone will always turn back first.” The girl spoke desperately; she was tired. It was hаrd to tell if she was warning Qin Mo or urging another version of herself. “You still haven’t fallen in too deeply yet. So if you leave now, you will never have to see him again. You can get away.”

She had no other options now.

_{“Then, what about your future?”}“Are you feeling any better?” Qin Mo poured the cooled water from the enamel mug into a paper cup, placing it next to Shen Qing’s lips. Her hands were injured after all, so she could only drink with the help of Qin Mo’s hands.

“Then, what about your future?”

_{The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.}What could a person do apart from compromising? Leverage their life to threaten the one they love in an act of desperation? Or do they latch on to that lover until the last remnants of their affection are snuffed out by the harsh coldness of reality?

The bubbling from the kettle grew louder by the minute, seeming like they snapped as they shot to the surface to shatter.

_{With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”}
After hearing her words, Qin Mo gave his response, his tone calm yet firm: “I’ll wait. He and I will go together.”

With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”

_{“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.}“You’ve been sad this entire time,” Qin Mo replied before adding, “No… you’ve been in pain all along.”

“Can’t you let me wallow in my sadness for a little while longer?” Shen Qing smiled bitterly.

_{“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”}“I’ll give you my family’s number, so when you get out of here, please call my mom and tell her that I’m willing to come home.”

“Nothing.” Shen Qing shook weakly. “What does it matter?”

_{After both stayed silent for a moment, the quiet was interrupted by a growl from Shen Qing’s stomach.}
“Haa…” Shen Qing sighed. “I regret it. I really do.”

After both stayed silent for a moment, the quiet was interrupted by a growl from Shen Qing’s stomach.

_{Once, they were holding hands tіghtly, walking side by side. But that hand in hers pulled away, leaving hers. All she had left was a dead-end path she would now walk alone.}N/A

Once, they were holding hands tіghtly, walking side by side. But that hand in hers pulled away, leaving hers. All she had left was a dead-end path she would now walk alone.

_{Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.}“Hey, Qin Mo,” Shen Qing called out, her gaze still empty. “I have nothing left now.” Despite there being nothing peculiar in her expression, Qin Mo got the feeling she was crying despite her lack of tears.

Turning his head for a bit, Qin Mo noticed Shen Qing had awoken. But as he looked at her empty eyes staring at the ceiling, the only thing there was dying embers and endless despair.

_{There was nothing left.}“There’s a computer right here. You can swap out the surveillance footage right now. There are also a lot of tools here in this room, so you can walk to the northern wall from here and cut through the barbed wire fence. Sure, it might be hаrder on your own, but it’s not impossible. You can leave right now instead of staking it all on some future plan. You don’t have to wait,” Shen Qing urged.

There was nothing left.

_{With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.}
In the beginning, she was only teasing him. But then, whether unintentionally or not, she helped nudge them together because she was also in the midst of her own sweet love, so she truly believed that so long as you loved the other person, everything would work out.

With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.

_{“Then, what about your future?”}What could a person do apart from compromising? Leverage their life to threaten the one they love in an act of desperation? Or do they latch on to that lover until the last remnants of their affection are snuffed out by the harsh coldness of reality?

“Then, what about your future?”

_{“Then, what about your future?”}
But now, as she was covered in the wounds such a tryst had begotten, how could she dare profess to anyone that loving purely means there’d be nothing to fear?

“Then, what about your future?”

_{“I’ll give you my family’s number, so when you get out of here, please call my mom and tell her that I’m willing to come home.”}But the girl currently before him was utterly miserable, incomprehensibly so.

“I’ll give you my family’s number, so when you get out of here, please call my mom and tell her that I’m willing to come home.”

_{There was nothing left.}Shen Qing lifted her head, revealing a mix of snot and tears on her face that he gently began wiping clean.

There was nothing left.

_{In the beginning, she was only teasing him. But then, whether unintentionally or not, she helped nudge them together because she was also in the midst of her own sweet love, so she truly believed that so long as you loved the other person, everything would work out.}With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.

_{“Then, what about your future?”}Qin Mo’s questioning look at her request made Shen Qing lower her eyes. “I give up.” She said simply, as there was nothing left for her to cling to.

“Then, what about your future?”

_{With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”}“I gave everyone my apologies and did what I wanted, and in exchange for that, she, to me, said she was sorry, too.”

With this, Qin Mo told her the plan, then added, “So all you need to do is just act like you did before.”

_{With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.}Seeing that Shen Qing had already woken up, Qin Mo had no reason to stay there any longer, so he got ready to leave. But as he took his first step, Shen Qing stated, “You can do it now… You can leave this place right now.”

With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.

_{Chapter 38: Despair}“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.

Chapter 38: Despair

_{“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.}Just as Qin Mo was almost prepared to go ask Mo Nian for assistance for their plan, Shen Qing was caught, dragged back, beaten with a paddle, and left to kneel outside for a full day before being dumped in the infirmary, long pushed into her current state.

“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.

_{“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”}“Look up, please.” Qin Mo sat beside her, his hands pulling out a towel soaking in the basin before wringing it dry.

“There’s something I’d like to discuss with you, then.” Qin Mo then said. “I hope you’ll help me.”

_{“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.}
With that, Qin Mo’s figure vanished beyond the door, and Shen Qing, now alone in that room, stared at her hands bound in white dressings, losing all ability to control the thoughts in her mind.

“Yeah.” Shen Qing let out a string of coughs as soon as she spoke, prompting Qin Mo to get her another drink.

_{After downing three cups in a row, Shen Qing’s face cracked into a grin more unseemly than her sobbing one as she teased, “If Shen Zhuoyun found out about this, he’d take me out in an instant.”}The steam barrelled from the kettle, the bubbles snapping and popping with such ferocity that the switch for the base automatically clіcked off.

_{“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.}
Once, they were holding hands tіghtly, walking side by side. But that hand in hers pulled away, leaving hers. All she had left was a dead-end path she would now walk alone.

“Do you still love her?” Qin Mo asked.

_{She compromised.}Just as Qin Mo was almost prepared to go ask Mo Nian for assistance for their plan, Shen Qing was caught, dragged back, beaten with a paddle, and left to kneel outside for a full day before being dumped in the infirmary, long pushed into her current state.

She compromised.

_{Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.}
She was in a state of hopelessness, unsure of where to go, but certain she would not turn back. So she was stuck at this crossroad, the only place she could stay until time slowly erodes the love her youthful heart holds onto so deeply and persistently. Maybe she will remain like this for a few years, or maybe she’ll be stuck there for a lifetime, unable to move forward, forever buried at that impasse.

Qin Mo moved from Shen Qing’s side to get a basin. Filling it with some cold water, he then poured in the contents of the kettle, the steam fogging up his glasses.

_{Qin Mo’s questioning look at her request made Shen Qing lower her eyes. “I give up.” She said simply, as there was nothing left for her to cling to.}“So what will you do now?” Qin Mo asked.

Qin Mo’s questioning look at her request made Shen Qing lower her eyes. “I give up.” She said simply, as there was nothing left for her to cling to.

_{She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.}She had no other options now.

She wasn’t trying to tempt him; all she wanted to express to the person before her was that there was another path he could take.

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